Reasons...

I know I said that chapter 36 was on its way, and that might have felt as if I was going to update on Sunday (06). Well, chapter 36 is still on its way, and I have no idea of when I’m going to finish and post it. Most of you probably don’t care about reasons (to tell the truth, I don’t even know if this post will be read by anyone other than myself), but I do feel the need to justify my lapse and lateness. The thing is, I’ve been having ideas for years now, and those are not the writing kind, but rather the sewing kind. Those have been dorment on me for a while, but it all changed when I found an incredible blog, Bridges on the Body, where the blogger recreates classic corsets (and I have to say, they are just wonderful!). So, this brought back my own ideas of corset making. And, as anyone who read Forgotten Paradise had noticed, I have a great love/interest/addiction for corsets (probably not as great as Cait’s, for I only own one, self-made, that could be better). Back to the point, I’m having a big case of ‘I need to make a corset’ at the moment, and already have (almost) all I need to get one together (what I’m lacking here is steel boning, or simply spiral boning and busk, but those are really hard to get in my city and ordering from the internet would take too long of a time, and I’m quite eager here).
Anyway, what I really had to say is: as soon as my corset-making fever passes, I’ll be able to concentrate on the story and not get sidetracked like this again. Well, at least not until I have another fever like this.
P.S.: wish me luck, the only boning I can find in this corset-goddess-forsaken city is that plastic cheap thing that doesn’t really hold a thing (that’s why my first attempt could be better).

Another self-reminder

Just forget everything else and write!
Lately I've been too worried with what others think. So now I'm reminding myself that I just have to write and finish this story the best way I can. And this means that I don't have to please everyone with the end, 'cause I won't please everyone no matter what.
Chapter 36 on its way!

Explanation...

I just wanted to explain why there has been no update on Twisted Jealousy Game lately, and that's mainly because of a major block I'm having. Now, the good news is that I'm not giving up. I'm going to finish this story! So rest assured that you'll read the end of it, though I cannot tell you if it's going to be anytime soon.

It works!

It seems like complaining really works. I’m not sure exactly which one of my complaints really worked, but, today, like magic, all the stats that were missing in my traffic just showed up like if they had always been there. Go figure. I’m happy though. Now I can see how many hits and visitors I actually had since Set 13th.
Changing topic now, I’m getting to a point in TJG that might get some a bit angry at me. Don’t worry though, there’s a possibility that you’ll like what’s to come.
As to the sequel to FP, that has been put on the biggest hold ever. At the moment I’m not even sure if I’ll keep on writing anything after I’m finished with TJG. The ideas in my head are just too confusing to get any sense out of them, and without sense I’m not sure I even have a plot to work with. So, I promise to concentrate on what I have right now and finish what I’m writing. So, don’t get sad if I’m never able to get a sequel to FP done and posted.

... support team? what support team?

I'm actually doing my best to finish TJG, but so far fictionpress haven't been cooperating so well. It's not the first time, and it probably won't be the last, but the traffic statistics just stopped two week ago, on Monday 13th. The last time at least they put it back up in less than a week, but this time they are really asking to be hated. I don't really go around the internet looking for sites like fictionpress, the only other one I know is fanfiction, and I cannot post my stories there if they are not fanfictions (right?). But I'm really considering going for a site that has more support and actually answers the e-mails we send with complaints - even if it's those automatic messages - and also fix the problems in a shorter time. I've actually looked around fictionpress' forums and realized that lots of people already complained about the lack of activity on the part of the technical team (do they really exist at all, or they just care more about fanfiction?). I really hope these problems could be solved once and for all, it would be just too frustrating to go around the internet looking for another site with better tools.
I know that my words here might never reach the people who should read them, but at least I found a place where I can get them out and to the world.

Thoughts...

I’ve been trying to translate Forgotten Paradise to Portuguese, and while at it, I’ve been having quite some ideas to a possible sequel. I’m still not sure exactly what it’ll be about (though I already have some ideas to write from when I was still finishing Forgotten Paradise), and don’t have a title for it either. The only thing that I do know, is that it won’t be in Cait’s point of view (I thought about Lilah’s or even Kiara’s, but I’m still thinking, since I could use another character or even create a new one just for that… but I’m still thinking).
Also, I might start to post some things in Portuguese here as well. But when I do that it’ll probably just be a translation to something I wrote in English (on the same post).
Well, I didn’t have much to say, just that as soon as I’m finished with Twisted Jealousy Game I’ll start working on some sequel to Forgotten Paradise.
Damn! That’ll put all the other projects I have on hold. Again. I think I’m in great need of some thought management…

Hum... not really...

Sorry, I have a feeling the update of Twisted Jealousy Game will be a little late for chapter 13 (I still have lots of things to fix in that chapter and don't want to give you guys something that won't be as good as I first thought it to be). I've been having quite a few troubles at writing, it seems like my head and muse are not as much in full cooperation as they were in Forgotten Paradise (even though they've had some struggles along that way as well. I think I need a new muse, does anyone have a spare one or know where I can find an unemployed one?). I'm trying to get some writing done, but things just keep on getting foggy and I have to try to keep on track with what I had been planning. Though planning is not exactly what I do, and since I've been distancing myself too much from the proved-to-work writing formula from my first finished story, I think I need some rethinking and reconsidering of what I've been doing lately (that certainly can apply to my personal life as well, which, btw, is totally sucking, and that influences too much my writing mood. Hence, sorry).

WTF?

The story seems to be taking it's course, but I still catch myself looking at the blank document with the cursor blinking on it without knowing exactly what to write. Sometimes it seems like the cursor's just mocking me, as if saying that I don’t know what to do anymore and that I should give up. But I insist. Even when I can’t write a thing in one document, I open another one and write something else. So, in the end, the cursor doesn’t win, and I, even without writing where I originally wanted to, still consider myself victorious in my success to write something worth it. But still, it looks like a deuce. I didn’t write where I wanted to, so the cursor wins, but I managed to write, so I win. This sounds more childish at every word I write.
Now, changing subjects to something more interesting (and also more serious), I've made a little progress in Twisted Jealousy Game, though I'm still getting along with some ideas I've had about the next chapter (the one I'm writing, not the one I've failed to post this weekend - sorry for that by the way). I swear, when I first thought about writing this story I hadn't think it'd be so hard. Forgotten Paradise was a piece of cake, and in some ways got me a little spoiled.